So, it’s 0430 and I really should be still in bed as we’re meant to be getting up early for our trip to Greece where I’ll be co-facilitating Family Fortnight at www.kalikalos.com. The boys are so excited and so am I …so of course…just when I really need sleep, it eludes me.
I’m also still completely overwhelmed by the fact that my book Love Being Me is now on Amazon as a Kindle book, alongside people I have loved and admired for so many years. In fact I can’t stop crying. It feels so overwhelming to think that I could write a book and that people might buy it, are buying it. Amazing and humbling and scary.
Amazing because writing a book was a childhood dream and it was something that I thought ‘other people’ did, other people who weren’t like me. I thought famous people wrote books, gifted people, talented people, and therefore, not like me. And so my amazement comes with knowing that I have written a book and that people are reading it even when I am so flawed sometimes so insecure and so imperfect. And for some reason that makes me want to cry because it means that we don’t need to be anything other than we are to make our dreams come true, we don’t need to be perfect, or someone else, or fatter or thinner or richer or smarter…we can make our dreams come true just the way that we are!
It’s also been so humbling. So many people have helped. Friends have proof read, edited and listened to the ideas. I’ve had amazing guidance from www.petemosley.com and www.Alicampbell.com has believed in me and even taken time out of his international schedule to write a foreword. I wrote letters to Sasha Allenby of the Awakening Moment, asking her how she got published and also to Janey Lee Grace www.imperfectlynatural.com and they both replied in detail and were immensely helpful. All of these people gave me advice and wisdom freely and openly. The offered information, love skills and guidance and I am humbled by their generosity and desire to support my success.
Finally it’s scary. It is scary to write about my ideas and learning and put it out into the world for consumption. All those old voices of ‘what if they don’t like it?’, ‘I’m not good enough’, ‘who do you think you are’ all shout loudly…and I’ve done it anyway.
I never imagined such complexity and strength of feeling about making my own dream come true. I’ve had to ignore those negative voices, ask for help and believe in myself, as well as show up every day to take the next step to do what I wanted to do.
So my questions to you are
- What did you dream of as a child?
- What do you think only ‘other’ people can do?
- What small steps can you take to doing this yourself?
- Who can help you?
- What is your first step?
Oh, and one last feeling. I feel proud. Proud of myself. Proud that I showed up at the keyboard and wrote, that I asked for help, that I found the right professionals to help me publish (like www.reallyloveyourbook.com) and that I did it! Yeah
I look forward to hearing about your dreams and how you’re making them come true.