roller-coaster corona-coaster

Roller-coaster/ Corona- coaster: the ups and downs of emotions caused by covid-19.

Oh yes.

Intense loneliness even though I live with people.

Exhaustion when I have done nothing.

Fuzzy thinking.

Seeing things much more clearly.

Old grief emerging.

Peace.

Calm.

Serenity.

Lack of joy.

Gratitude.

More creativity, less creativity.

Love.

Fear.

Sadness.

I think … Read more


Today I have felt sad all day

Today I have felt sad all day.  I went on my early morning walk but didn’t do yoga before breakfast as usual which isn’t good.

I felt sad because when I went on line into 365 Teams, they were empty, like caverns with just my text echoing off the virtual class room walls.  I miss … Read more


Identity – who am I?

I’d like to say I’m having and identity crisis. But I’m not. Because I don’t feel like there is a me to have an identity crisis about.

I’m aware that I didn’t blog last week and it’s because I feel like I’m in a bit of a cocoon soup and so I’m not really sure … Read more


Body Talk – Listening to the Seasons

I think I’ve spent a lot of my life disembodied; without my body.

Not that I haven’t had a body of course, just that I think for many years my body was merely the machinery which was used to carry my mind around.  The only real time that I noticed my body was to pick … Read more


Do nice girls Hate?

I think I mentioned that in the summer I’d played the Transformation Game.  I played it to understand more about my relationship with someone, but what came up was Hate.

I’m capitalizing Hate because it felt like a villain who had arrived in my identity with no  introduction, invitation or desire.

I’ve never really felt … Read more


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