Today I woke up to the sun shining, golden and low, reflecting the river rippling onto the wall behind my bed.
Then, after warm water, the cat and I walked to the yoga hut, through the drizzle, past the trees we cut, waiting to be firewood and charcoal to make light for the fruit to … Read more
Roller-coaster/ Corona- coaster: the ups and downs of emotions caused by covid-19.
Intense loneliness even though I live with people.
Exhaustion when I have done nothing.
Seeing things much more clearly.
Old grief emerging.
Lack of joy.
More creativity, less creativity.
I think … Read more
Today I have felt sad all day
Today I have felt sad all day. I went on my early morning walk but didn’t do yoga before breakfast as usual which isn’t good.
I felt sad because when I went on line into 365 Teams, they were empty, like caverns with just my text echoing off the virtual class room walls. I miss … Read more
Identity – who am I?
I’d like to say I’m having and identity crisis. But I’m not. Because I don’t feel like there is a me to have an identity crisis about.
Body Talk – Listening to the Seasons
I think I’ve spent a lot of my life disembodied; without my body.
Not that I haven’t had a body of course, just that I think for many years my body was merely the machinery which was used to carry my mind around. The only real time that I noticed my body was to pick … Read more
Do nice girls Hate?
I think I mentioned that in the summer I’d played the Transformation Game. I played it to understand more about my relationship with someone, but what came up was Hate.
I’m capitalizing Hate because it felt like a villain who had arrived in my identity with no introduction, invitation or desire.
I’ve never really felt … Read more