You don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone- or how we don’t see the last time coming

We were packing up to leave from our Easter holiday and I noticed the kids talking about ‘next time…’.  So sure were they that there would be a ‘next time’ in that place…but will there be?

As we pulled out of the harbour with the yellow fishing nets behind us we had know idea that … Read more


Bereavement and Sadness at Christmas

Christmas is always mixed for me.

  • How was it for you?
  • How did you feel?

I love seeing the kids open their presents (we got it right this year – phew) and I like having time to see friends.

I also feel sad at Christmas because it isn’t in a semi-detached house in Kent with … Read more


Another year over and a new year just begun

Years ago I went through a phase of reading all of Bruce Chatwin’s books…starting with The Song Lines. I loved not just the travel, but his reflections on his experience.  He used Moleskine notebooks on his travels and I aspired to have Moleskines as part of my life.  It wasn’t until some 10 years later … Read more


Another year older…

I turned 47 this year.   I can no longer kid myself that I’m only half way through my life…I’m on the home run now.

I’m minded of T S Eliot’s poem Little Gidding which is the last of the Four Quartets:

We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring

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Maya Angelou, Barbara and Emile

Maya Angelou died today and I feel sad.

Barbara Mainwaring died a week ago and I feel sad.

Emile Van Dantzig died a couple of weeks ago and I feel sad.

I’m guessing you will know Maya Angelou, but you might not know Emile or Barbara.  So let me tell you a bit about them.… Read more


Teams

Where have I been since the summer?

I haven’t written anything or created anything and have only had energy for doing the things which need doing.  I’ve felt tired, energy-less and not very hopeful about anything, which is unusual for me.

I hit a sad place when I came back from Kalikalos in Greece. … Read more


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